The Surrender Experiment, by Michael Singer. Read it.
I love this excerpt from Michael:
“Something much wiser than me had reached into my psyche that night and rearranged my entire relationship with myself. I no longer saw the lower aspect of myself, with all his personal issues and melodramas, as the enemy that had to be destroyed. I looked at him now with a new understanding.’
I needed to use all these disturbed personal energies for my ascent. It was perfectly clear to me that since he (I) was the problem, he (I) was also the solution. I actually felt a tinge of compassion toward that struggling person within me.’
I would later come to learn that the Bhagavad Gita says that ONE SHOULD RAISE THE SELF WITH SELF, not trample down the self. I had been trampling down my personal self in the name of getting free from his humanness. I now needed to learn how to raise those energies up to assist me on the journey.”
Yes, this is a little deep, but to dumb things down, I think Michael was trying to say don’t beat your self up. Don’t regret things that have happened in the past, or dwell on bad judgments and thoughts you might have.
It’s futile, it’s nonsense, and I still do it sometimes.
There is a saying I heard from the author James Altucher, “The first arrow wounds, and the second arrow kills.”
The first arrow is the mistake you made, or the uncontrollable circumstance that happened in your life. This arrow only wounds. You will heal from it.
The second arrow is when you trample yourself down mentally and emotionally. It’s your reaction. The second arrow is the important one to be aware of.
Throughout our lives, we will see many first arrows that will leave a couple scars. Surrender, and accept those first arrows. In fact, embrace them. Then learn from them. They are part of who you are. They are part of your journey.
As for the second arrows, be aware of it, and it will never hit you.
Through that awareness, the first arrow does not trample you down, but it becomes a symbol and a catalyst for your change, growth, and enlightenment. The mistake becomes the skill. The bad luck becomes the blessing.
You’ve raised self, with self.